end of frankfurt school...

school's over! I got an A in politics...sooo easy to please those fucking '68 teachers...
started working two days ago...don't miss school that much...miss someone, but that's alright...not out of the world. working is funny...newspaper was there and all people are like "Oh, I'm so sorry that you quit..." to my boss. I'm sorry, too.But also, because I know how much of his life he wasted for this shop and that this fucking construction site (which is now directly in front of the shop) is killing his buisness since january...and also that a H. is now in switzerland, but he ain't driving up and down anymore (my summerplan!), cause he's moving there completely...
met the new boss...I don't know what to think of...but at least she said that I can finish my apprentienceship in that shop...kind of cool...since school is over and all those circumstances (getting up very early, being tired as hell, emotionally fuck ups, emptiness,...) my inner balance has become better.went to some antifascist actions on saturday.baby L. joined (for the first time!)...so I had kinda protect her...hope it wasn't too much...whole city of FFM was full of cops...so the actions were kind of uncoordinated and spontanous...so I tried to get us away from the cops, after we lost all people...and that was like getting out of it completely...the actions got kind of wild and heavily and the cops arrested over 170 people ...I don't know if I was too protective...the whole thing was (like mostly kind of) dissatisfying. an army of cops managed the rally of a bunch of nazis...against heavily resistance...railwaystations got occupied and (some bushes) got burned...we didn't see anything of it, because of my protectiveness...I didn't wanted her to get captured, injured or anything else...for what? it was helpless to push through to the (militant) nazis and she wasn't out to fight...the whole thing had anyway the outlook of a soccer-hooligan battle...it was all in all kinda stupid and ...I don't wanna call it senseless, because antifascism is never senseless, but very uncoordinated...
still reading: dostojewski:demons, biography of walter benjamin, schulte-varendorff: kolonialheld für kaiser und führer, general lettow-vorbeck, monography of jean paul marat, monography of lion feuchtwanger,...and always rolf dieter brinkmann