short break

had some free days. was good. spent most of the time sleeping...zzzzzzzzzz...easy gifts for a wheel in the machine...my sweetheart L. hadn't got to work that weekend...that was soooo damn good...spending time together is such a precious thing in modern capitalism. It's good to see that there's a life besides working/school/university (which should have been above it!) and without the fucking alarm-clock...the controlling instrument next to your bed!!
yes, this shit makes me angry, when I'm thinking about all the wasted time for others benefits...
but I'm cool now. Yesterday was a nice show at the slaughterhouse, met nice people...(and some creepy ones).xTx's band was playing.great as always, although I stood only for the last three songs on front...but that was worth it!little bit going out, little bit moshing, friends, that's all what I need to regenerate and gives me power to go on with that endless struggle, that everybody has to fight...yep, I'm sysiphos...you not?...
I met C-Y and S, which was a swell and Baby L. was asking C-Y if she wouldn't like starting a band...let's see. But she also is asking H and U, which is pretty more concrete...but well, let's see!
The creepy person I met is JB. He's a part of my past and still living in that...He told me about all this fucked up people from my town. Guys like L, B, Y, JR, JB2, G... all fucked up...still hanging around at the fountain, drunk and stoned as fuck and hang out with the village youth, they even got their Mofas back...this is really decline in its purest ways...the thought of going back there one day, while visiting my mom, sis or so, and meeting one of these fucking bastards makes me wanna puke. shit!that's a creepy vision... I hate that area so much and my wasted days of youth with assholes like them......
I didn't tell JB where I'm actually living or what I'm doing...don't want him to come around...bad memories of our times of hanging out together...I told him I would wash corpses at the clinic... so now the village knows that;) that's kind of funny...harharhar...fucking bloody dumbfuck bastards GO TO HELL!!! (well, that's where they are already...my hometown!)